Friday, November 13, 2009

Bullying Women - Police Commissioner Edition.

Jump under the cut! I unfortunately can't find anything on the internet about this, and I've been searching everywhere.

I *think* it was the WA Police Commissioner, but I couldn't be sure. He called a Greens MP (a woman):

- A two-bit politician.
- Said "She had another think coming" if she thought they weren't going to pursue every legal avenue they could.

What did she say? Only the truth. That new Police powers being pushed through Parlaiment by Colin Barnett have the possibility of creating situations where people are singled out for searching because of their skin colour. You know, racial profiling.

He was clearly bullying her and swinging his dick around on air. It was hideous, horrible, and a clear indication of the kind of world we live in. Men allowed to bully professional women on air, to belittle them and minimise their opinions and their work. She is an elected official, she deserves some respect.

He didn't have to use the abusive language he did. All he had to do was refute her and say that they were going to do everything in their power to make sure it didn't happen. I wouldn't believe a fucking word he said, but there IS a way to defend himself without attacking her. This didn't happen.

This isn't good enough. I don't even know where to start, or what to say or do about this. It's fucking shocking.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Feministing: Time to change.

Jump under the cut! Dear Feministing,

I like you, Jessica, Samhita, Jos, Courtney, et al. You're making an effort. You've made a difference in the fact that you are so visible and notable in the blogosphere (I hate that word). You have made inroads into Meatspace, getting on talk shows, being the go-to girls about our wave of Feminism. And you got there cause you said good things, and because people visit your blog and community.

Now is not the time to sit on your laurels, or to be content. There is a world of battles out there, and Feminism is involved with a truckload of them. If you're gonna wave that banner, you have to step up to the plate and accept the responsibility of being a better person. Isn't that the point of Feminism? To get true equality? What's true equality if the trans-folk, the disabled, the old, the WOC are all silenced, because their problems aren't YOUR problems?

These women are our sisters. They want to fight with us, they want to make the world a better place too. Don't we need every person we can get in this effort?

You're at least engaging with disabled women on this issue. That's a promising sign. But this needs to be the beginning. You need to strengthen your mod team. You need to call your commenters on their bullshit (Marc and Gopher in particular). You need to encourage a culture of acceptance and recognising one's own privilege. To be the best feminist space you can be, you must also be a safe space. The words "I don't like your tone" or "How am I supposed to know?" should NEVER be uttered there.

I think it's time to be the feminists you want to be. If you don't make the change now, when the feminist blog-space is shouting for change, then I will have no choice but to cease visiting your website.

Nancy Lorenz.

Where the fuck have I been?

Jump under the cut! Well, it's like this, you see. At the beginning of this post you might notice the text that says "Jump under the cut". Well, I can't fucking get rid of it. And it's been putting me off big time.

That and I can't get BlogJet to work anymore. I hate struggling with online software, I really do. I haven't abandoned this, but having limited spoons, it might take me some time to rectify things.

I'll continue posting, but forgive me for the weird links at the beginning of my posts. I'm very upset about it. It's shitting me big time.

Sunday, August 16, 2009


Jump under the cut! I don't often say that. But today, I say it.

There's an ad for Four Corners and online crime (hacking, etc). There's a soundbite from a guy being interviewed: "It's like being raped."

No. I'm sorry, no. As my little bro said, "You can unplug your computer from the wall."

I don't doubt having your business's files rifled through or your money stolen is a horrible experience. But it is NOT equal to personal violence on such an intimate and soul-destroying level. I am going to complain to ABC but I don't know where to start. I feel like sexual assault has been trivialised (it has).

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

10 Things You Should Never Say to a Survivor

Jump under the cut! I've seen a large number of counsellors and psychologists/psychiatrists since I was assaulted. There's a sort of grim humour in the stuff I hear. I have to laugh. I have to laugh at the fact that I know how to treat sexual assault victims better than people that have spent years in university ostensibly learning how to be mental health professionals. There are good ones out there, I just don't have the money to see them. Anyway, point being - sometimes, we assault victims talk about our experiences. There are certain things we want to hear, and then there's a buttload of things we don't. Here's a few of them.

10. Why didn't you [shout/scream/call for help]? Okay. You know when you have a really scary dream, and everything slows down in that dream? It's like you can't run fast enough, you can't move quickly enough, before whatever you're terrified of gets you? Rape/Sexual Assault is JUST LIKE THAT. Except you CAN'T WAKE UP. You can't move. You can't say anything. I don't know why it's like that. I haven't had anyone counsel me about that part of my experience and it's something I sit up at night wondering about. Your average rape victim will also feel this way, more often than not. It's a trigger, and it lays the blame for their attack at their feet. So DON'T ASK THIS QUESTION.

9. Why didn't you hit him/run? This is 10's yucky cousin. Like 10, there is no answer. It's just the way it happens. Fear paralyses you. It's a survival response. Moving on.

8. Maybe you should take up a self-defense course? No. I would love to take up a self defense course, but that's more confidence and health related than anything. And remember what I said about fear being paralytic? Even black-belts get raped.

7. Don't ask what the person did before the rape. Not during the rape, not after the rape. The victim/survivor will talk about it if they need to.

6. Don't criticise. You'd think that one is straight forward, but I've been criticised by two mental health professionals. It happens.

5. Don't ask for proof/details. Even if you're doubtful, don't vocalise that to the victim/survivor. Also keep in mind that very, VERY few rape/assault accusations are false. If a person has gone to the trouble of making an accusation, they probably fucking well mean it. You don't make that decision lightly. I agonised over whether to share the truth of my assault. I didn't just make the accusation because I didn't like the guy. It's a serious situation that often reflects BADLY on the victim/survivor, so if they claim they've been hurt in this way, they probably have. You just feel like you're going mad if you can't announce the truth and throw off the blame.

4. Don't pressure them to go to the police/try to push a charge. The priority of a victim is to survive. Living from day to day after an assault is a struggle, a horrible thing I hope you never, ever have to understand (and my deepest love and sadness if you do). It is something the victim/survivor has to choose for themselves. There's a lot of emotional/psychological hurdles involved in going to the police. I myself didn't cause I knew I could never get my charge to stick. It would basically be he said/she said, and in this patriarchal society, he said has more credence than she said. Don't lay the guilt at their feet if their attacker hurts someone again. IT IS NOT THEIR FAULT. Yet the guilt and shame of "Letting the rapist get away with it" is very often laid at the previous victim's feet, sometimes unknowingly with such comments as, "But you have to stop him" or "What about the women he hurts in the future?"

3. Don't question their coping mechanisms. Sometimes victims/survivors do some seemingly odd things to cope with their newfound trauma. I liked watching lots of childish videos, colouring in pictures, and wearing covering clothes. Some lock all doors, or put a chair up against their bedroom door. Some never wear certain sorts of shoes again (so they can run better) or they might avoid certain kinds of movies or media. It might seem strange, but it's what they gotta do to get by. Support them.

2. Don't lament in this change in behaviour. Don't say, "Oh, but you used to be so full of life" or "You're not the person you used to be." I know I was paranoid and depressed that I had changed. I haven't changed, I am still the same person. I'm just a little scarred emotionally, that's all.

1. Don't make rape jokes. You'd think this would be straight forward. Once, I revealed that I had been assaulted to someone. Later in the conversation, they made a rape joke. I felt like vomiting right there at the table. I ran off into the restroom of the cafe and shat myself from the storm of adrenaline and anxiety that had rocketed through my body as a result. Rape jokes are RARELY OKAY. Grim gallows humour between survivors: Good. Every other rape joke in existence: BAD. BAD BAD BAD. DON'T DO IT. It's NOT EDGY. IT'S DOUCHY. DON'T DO IT!

This website will tell you good things to say if a friend has been hurt in this way.

Friday, August 7, 2009

You don't realise how hot the water has gotten until you get out...

Jump under the cut! And then you're a nearly-dead lobster.

Tonight, I saw a woman goal umpire while watching the football. It was like seeing a unicorn.

I pointed at the screen, pointed at the breasts and I said, "That's a woman! Was that a woman?!" I've watched football my entire life. Seeing a woman on that field, even just as an umpire?

I can't tell you what that meant to me. I can't tell you the joy and delight in my chest. It was BETTER than a unicorn! More liberating, more exciting, more invigorating. I have a new hero! I want to know who she is!

And I realised - I really need to see woman's football. But they don't televise that, sadly. Except on cable, and I can't afford it. :(

But really - seeing that woman throw the 'goal' signal made my entire night. I didn't realise how much it meant to me to have a woman on the oval as something OTHER than a cheerleader until I saw it. Then I realised that all these years, I'd been shouldering a sadness, a feeling of non-inclusion that I'd grown numb to.

(x-posted to my LJ).

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Aussie Men Make Shitty Husbands, says study.

Jump under the cut! The Aussie men I know are pretty awesome husbands, but I mix with progressive nerds.

A study found that Australian Men were less likely to help with domestic chores. Another study also confirmed that bears shit in woods.

You might think I’m being tough on Australian men, but I have to ask those that aren’t Australian - have you met the average Aussie “bloke”? Well-meaning, sure, but a more chauvinistic, socially-rigid bunch of bastards you will not meet.

It’s to the point that I do not go to straight bars because I do not want to be hit on by the average man living in my city. I’m sure it’s not so bad in Melbourne and Sydney, but where I live (Perth), fuckwittedness seems to be epidemic.

I live in a place where being shouted at from a car window is considered a great way to meet women. I shit you not. Dickheads actually expected me and my friend walking home from the gay bar to get INTO their car. We laughed. I didn’t laugh too hard – my sister was raped by a stranger who had gotten tanked and gone to a titty bar.

Now, I know not all Australian men are like this. I really, really do. I defend the good Aussie man. They exist, I know many of them. But what I’m trying to tackle here (rather hamfistedly I will admit) is a certain mindset that is pervasive in this culture.

A certain expectation on the part of men to fulfill a role that is blasted at them through media and through their mates. It’s a role that’s even more pervasive than what American men suffer, because it’s not mocked roundly here. It’s accepted as the mainstream, and if you don’t fit it, you’re a pussy, a big girl’s blouse, a panty-waisted limp-wristed Mummy’s boy. Here’s what is expected:

– You get yourself a woman, she does the housework.

– You own a dog.

– You violently loathe cats.

– You like killing animals.

– You laugh about violence and watch shit TV and movies.

– You never, ever change nappies or cook your own meals.

– You’re lazy, and it’s cool to be lazy.

– All you want to do is hang out with your mates and get pissed on your time off. Your wife is for schtupping and taking care of your sprogs.

Now, I am not suggesting that all men are like this. This is an image that is pushed onto the male populace and hence, some men act in this manner. Women have their roles too. The heteronormative bullshit here in Australia is thick and choking, and I really fucking hate it. Can you tell?